I can't remember the last time I updated on my pregnancy. I think it was somewhere around 20ish weeks. So it most definitely has been a while.
Things are going great with Frederick. So far he is growing on time. And he is an active little one. I love every second of it. I am literally amazed at watching him move. Especially since I can see it all from out here. He most definitely has taken over my insides. Every part of my body aches from time to time. And I still have a little while to go. So it'll be interesting. But it most definitely is worth it.
The whole becoming a mother for the first time is starting to sink in. I mean I was around babies all the time while I was home. I thought I knew all I needed to know. But i'm afraid it doesn't work that way. Because this time I have to pop this baby out of my own cooch. Ha. The thought of that bring so many other scary thoughts. And here we go googling everything and anything we need to know about Labor. And Contractions vs. Braxton Hick Contractions. C-Sections vs. Vaginal. Epidural vs. Natural. Breastfeeding vs. Bottle. Yes I googled breastfeeding. I know nothing about it. And this will be the first time my mommy pillows are gonna be used for anything other than four play. The risks and advantages of Inductions. And after hours and hours of squinting at my phone screeen. Yes I spend most of my google time on my phone when we are in bed and I can't seem to fall asleep. After hours of research. I feel like I still don't know enough. Maybe that is the OCD in me. But I feel like I have to know EVERYTHING to be completely prepared for what is about to happen. If my husband knew the worry that came with all these thoughts. He'd tell me to relax everything will be fine. But that is so easy to say when your not the one about to be in the hospital bed pushing something the size of a watermelon out of itty bitty hole. Or if that doesn't work out. Being the one that has to get sliced open. Either way. The whole thought process to all this. Isn't fun. It's just not very relaxing when it's you.
A couple months ago I went home for a baby shower. My first. And it was an interesting vacation. I love how going home is 'supposed' to be a vacation. It was a vacation from hell. Two words that describe everything that went wrong. Greed, Family! Let's just say I left with way less people in my life than I originally arrived with. But in the end it's for the better. My son doesn't need to grow up with those kind of people in his life.
The baby shower. Was packed. And hot. I had a good kind of stressful day. I got tons of gifts. Enough to cost my $80 to ship it all back home to Hawaii. Ha.
My nephew. Oh my goodness. Is getting so big. He is the cutest thing ever too. I feel bad. He spent 3 weeks getting used to having me there. And then I had to leave again. Sometimes being in the Navy has that disadvantage. You really don't get to see other family members kids grow up. And the same for yours. People who would've been strangers had you not been in the Navy get to become the aunts and uncles. They become the family you are missing. At the time he was 14 months old. He was walking and mumbling and doing so many cute baby things. It was the best feeling being around him again. The night I was packing to leave. He was just learning how to blow kisses. His version of kisses was the fishy face with the kiss sound. Ha. It was adorable. My brother and I didn't fight. It seems losing our father has made us that much closer. Which is good because he really is just about all the family I have left.
I came home after mothers day. And got in my nesting phase right away. My husband is just very messy. So I had. No I HAVE a lot I still have to do. And clean. Smelling the cleaning products is my total motivation. Some people get weird cravings and habits while pregnant. Mines is smelling cleaning products. I will literally clean the whole kitchen just to smell the spray I spray on the counter. And I will mop just to smell the pine sol. I guess it's better than me eating chalk or lint or something crazy like that.
The beginning of this month I had my second baby shower. It was only a few wives and myself at Macaroni grill. But it is still a day I will always remember. My friends are amazing for throwing it for me. I got so many cute gifts. And I am happy to announce, even though it was a monkey theme. I only got a couple things twice. But he is gonna use them. Because you can never have too many baby clothes or blankets.
Today is my first non stress test appointment. I have no clue what i'm supposed to do. Something about monitoring the babys movement. They never really gave me a full description on what is supposed to happen. I just know that I have to do it because I am now 'high risk'.
From what I know. They are still inducing me at 39 weeks. So only 6 weeks and 4 days to go until the big day. But as soon as full term comes. I'm going to do everything I can to get this child out. I want my body back. So a little over 4 weeks to go. I'm just hoping that works out.
We are moving home in the beginning of September. I am hoping if I have the baby right after we hit full term. Well we can go sometime late August. The beginning of August we have to ship our stuff home. And right before we go home we have to ship our car home. Thankfully Steven will already be on terminal leave. So we can do all this together. And I won't have to stress out with a newborn and getting all of that done on my own.
So that is it. That is life. My life in a nutshell at least. I'm sure i'll update again sometime before the baby gets here. Until then I hope all is well in your world out there. And have a great week.
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